Sound Of Silence

Sometimes the best days are the days spent not really doing anything at all. That was sorta my day today. I got up and hung out with the family this morning. We watched "Jumanji" on TBS and just talked and whatnot. Then I headed south of the ATL and spent the day hanging out with TNI. We grabbed some lunch, and played some pool, and watched a movie. Aside from getting the scenic backroads tour to get to his sister's house and a fruitless quest to find a sushi restaurant, it was basically a lazy, mellow afternoon... and it was great. Almost everyone else in my life seems to stress me out in one way or another these days. Family, friends, work, etc. I don't have that problem with TNI. I don't have to BE anyone for him. I can just be me and he seems to be ok with that. He seems to get that there are days when I am happy and goofy and fairly talkative and other days when I just need to adhere to my quieter side. Granted, I'm sure he likes happy, fun me better than quiet me, but he doesn't seem compelled to make me talk or fill the silences like most other people. The rest of my world should be as understanding... HWMNBM is the most outgoing person I've ever met. He never shuts up or sits still, and that's fine. It works for him, that's the way he is, but he expects me to keep up with him and that's just not in my nature. (Unless I've got a couple of martinis in me, then I become the most gregarious girl you've ever met.) He's finally starting to get the idea that maybe not everyone else on the planet is quite as extroverted as he is and that's good. Besides, he talks enough for the both of us. I can be Teller to his Penn :) There may be hope for us yet... Even S-boy gets uncomfortable when I lapse into my quiet place. He doesn't like the silences and at this point knows me well enough to change the subject to a topic he knows I'll talk about (movies, horses, hockey, etc) and to his credit, it usually works too. I'm not stupid though. I know when he's doing it and on some level it annoys me a little. Why are most people so uncomfortable with silence? If I have something to say, I'll say it. It doesn't mean I'm in a bad mood. It doesn't mean I'm pissed off at you. Trust me, if I'm pissed you'll fucking know about it. I'm just not good at the small talk thing and find idle chit-chat generally boring.... hmmm, the serious lack of dinner parties on my social calandar suddenly makes much more sense :) Hope everyone had a great holiday! Did I mention that I'm sooooo past ready to get back to LA?

“I like your silence, it the more shows off your wonder.” -- William Shakespeare - "The Winter's Tale" - Act V - Scene iii