Game Playing

True to my word, I came home from work tonight. I did not go out and consort with The Devil. (See, I'm getting wiser as I get older.) He was not at all pleased with that decision. I thought he only had my cell phone number and so once I got home to my canyon I would be safe from his increasingly angry calls... forgetting that my current cell message contains my home phone number. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. He kept calling and calling and calling. Why can't I attract a normal guy just once? Grrr. Arg. I know. I know. I know. I brought this on myself. I'm a fucking idiot sometimes... All I really wanted to do was come home and play some EQ and watch some TV and basically just veg the fuck out. That was not in the cards for me tonight though. Traffic SUCKED. It took me like an hour and 1/2 to get home. The only good thing about the trip was that TNI was kind enough to entertain me for part of the drive. Once I got here, I kept getting kicked offline and there was nothing good on TV. So now on top of being stir crazy and horny, I'm also annoyed... What I really should have done tonight was go to the World Without Sundays show at The Roxy. There would have been at least two very cute Hobbits there I could have flirted with. But it's an ugly, rainy night here in SoCal so I decided not to go. I sorta wish I had though. It would have been fun to drool over Frodo some more, even though he's way too young for me... and that's saying something, since my "Star Wars" rule got thrown out the window some time ago :) So I'm thinking I need to just go to bed and enjoy the fact that it's Friday so I have 2 days of freedom ahead of me. I'm not entirely sure what I'm going to do with those 2 days, but at least I have them... I do need to work on getting my New Year's plans finalized. NYE in LA is proving to be an adventure. Getting on the list anywhere good is something of a game to these people. It's all about name dropping and kissing the right asses. So I've dropped the few names I've managed to collect and am waiting to see where they get me. Maybe next year I'll be able to get in somewhere on my own merits. Surely it won't take this town too long to figure out how fabulous I am, right? If nothing else, maybe some well-to-do pretty boy will figure that out and I'll just give in to the shallowness like everyone else in this town and live richly ever after... Ok, maybe not... not yet anyway... I'm still holding onto the crazy romantic notion that I might still find "that" guy, ya know? Granted, in LA that's probably a long fucking shot, but what the hell? I'm a gambler at heart. I like long shots... and I must admit that I have a long shot that I'm sure tempted to put my money on at this point. I'm just not sure if he's quite ready to race yet though... Wow. I suddenly miss my horse. I wonder why that is? Hehe. Maybe I just need to make a trip to Hollywood Park to watch the ponies run... Or maybe I need to get some sleep before I start to make even less sense that I already am... My happy thing for today is rain. It makes sleeping so great. There's nothing better than being curled up in your nice warm bed when it's dreary and grey and rainy outside... ok, well maybe having someone else curled up with you would make it better... Have a great weekend everybody!

"When I say, "I love you," it's not because I want you or because I can't have you. It has nothing to do with me. I love what you are, what you do, how you try. I've seen your kindness and your strength. I've seen the best and the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are. You're a hell of a woman." -- James Marsters - "Buffy the Vampire Slayer"