Coming Unglued

I don't even know where to start. The rain blew through overnight and it's bright and sunny and beautiful here in LA today... and my day couldn't suck more. No, that's not true. It could, but let's hope it doesn't come to that because then I would just come completely unhinged. Technology continues to be my bane. Last night I couldn't stay connected to save my life and today my laptop just up and died on me. That's a very, very bad thing. My whole life is on that fucking machine. Yes, I have some of the info backed up in various places, but bad me, I haven't backed shit up lately and so there's A LOT of stuff I'm going to lose if I don't get the damn thing back up and running at least long enough for me to pull some stuff off of it. This also totally fucks up my plans for buying a new digital camera to use for some photo gigs I have lined up. Looks like I'll be spending that $$$ on a new laptop instead. Dammit. Dammit. Dammit. I totally flipped out on the poor Geek Squad guy at Best Buy. Me. Who very rarely shows anything even resembling emotion (especially in public) and I just lost it. The poor kid didn't know what to do. I'll feel better if I can at least get my stuff off the hard drive and backed up to my desk top. I know it's my own stupid fault for not having done that on a more regular basis, but knowing that didn't stop me from having a little meltdown this afternoon, in fact, it probably made things worse. So yeah, I kinda lost my mind there for a bit today. You'd think I'd be used to fits of maddness by now, but they still tire me the fuck out. I came home and hugged my dog and had a really good crying fit and I'm feeling better now. Really fucking exhausted, but still better... at least until I get on the AlienWare site and find out just how much this new little toy is going to cost me... That well-to-do pretty boy I mentioned last night is sounding better and better all the time...

"A person needs a little madness, or else they never dare cut the rope and be free." -- Nikos Kazantzakis

Happy thing for today... at least my dog loves me and doesn't care that I'm a raving, fucking lunatic sometimes...