Hellbound

This week had been going along just peachily until about 6:00 tonight. Then all of a sudden the assholes came out to play. I had 3 guys in a row who wanted to rant about stupid shit. They quickly turned my happy, sunny attitude into a dark and stormy one. Grrr. Arg. So by the time I left work I was in a really pissy mood... but then I ran into Frodo at the gas station. We admired each other's vehicles and discussed a band that we both like and he helped to turn my mood back around. He was really nice and super cute in person. Those blue eyes of his are something else... and speaking of baby blues, to cap off the day, S-boy called me just as I was about to get on the 101 to see if I wanted to go grab a bite to eat. Not one to turn down a free meal and a chance to spend a couple of hours with one of the sexiest men I know, I said, "sure." We decided on Mexican and a few margaritas later found ourselves immersed in a fairly serious conversation about past relationships. (Tequila = bad). That was how I found myself telling him about some of the drama I'd been through with The Devil and then mentioning that The Devil was going to be in town this weekend and that I was actually considering at least going to see him. Well, according to S-boy that is absolutely "not a fucking option." He basically forbid me to go. Apparently he doesn't know me as well as he thinks he does. I don't like to be told what to do. In fact, I often do the exact opposite just to prove that I can't be told what to do. Still, to appease him, I told S-boy I would think about not going. Honestly though, I don't know what I'm going to do in this case. I had pretty much talked myself out of going to see The Devil, but I don't know. I mean, I KNOW I shouldn't, but the temptation is still there. I'm bored and I'm horny and I'm kinda in the mood to be bad... and time spent with The Devil is always bad... but often times in very good ways... Things could go either way here. Maybe I'll just flip a coin on Friday and see where it sends me... Then I can blame anything that happens on Ka... Don't get me wrong. I love that S-boy is looking out for me. I know he's a good guy and he's very rational and normal and he's trying to keep me from being psychotic and stupid. (And he really has no clue how truly psychotic and stupid I have the potential to be.) I've just never been very good at taking other people's advice, especially when it comes to The Devil. I have a blind spot for him that gets me into all kinds of trouble... This should have been (and was) over a year ago... Dammit... I shouldn't be at this crossroads again... And yet, here I am... thinking very bad things... about a very bad guy... Grrr. Arg... I need to check in with my Guildies on EQ. Maybe we have a raid planned or something. That could swing my decision to stay home. I know it's a stupid reason, but maybe a stupid reason is exactly what I need here... since nothing else (like rationality) seems to be working :P Pardon me while I bang my head against the wall... So I forgot to include my happy thing in my last post. So today I'll put in two. Thing # 1: 'Nilla wafers. They rock. Thing #2: Free movie passes. I'm going to see "The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe" next week... of course, that's assuming I survive the weekend...

"When you dance with the Devil, the Devil don't change. The Devil changes you." -- Joaquin Phoenix - "8mm"