Welcome back Dear Reader. Nothing too exciting to report, but I felt compelled to blog something. Today has been fairly uneventful. I'm bored and kinda horny. It must be the weather...
For lack of anything better to write about, here are some updates to some recent blogs I had posted:
Update #1 is in regards to the incident with my ex the other night. He was not at all pleased that I called his current girlfriend and filled her in on all the bullshit that's been going on. I admit it was petty and vindictive of me to call her, but he deserved it, and it was kinda fun (for me anyway). Still, I had an ulterior motive for doing it. I was seriously hoping she would kill him. No such luck, but it sounds like it was a near thing :) He has left me several ugly voice-mails and sent me some even uglier e-mails and it's just been ugliness all around. I am actually taking a sort of perverse pleasure in his anger. Call me an evil bitch, but he brought this on himself and I'm going to revel in his misery for as long as I possibly can. Eternal damnation in the deepest circle of Hell would be too good for him at this point... Mainly I'm just pissed off that he forced me to sink to his level in all this. I am not normally a vindictive person. It takes a hell of a lot to piss me off. I have remained on good terms with most of my ex-boyfriends over the years. I don't believe that everything needs to end badly. Chances are that if I liked a guy enough to date him, then we had other things in common aside from just physical attraction.. and we still had those things in common even after the relationship ended. I thought that was the case here, but it seems that I was woefully wrong. I desperately tried to salvage a friendship out of it, but it obviously was not meant to be. It makes me sad that things have turned as vicious as they have, but I guess that was what needed to happen. Ilicet et super, denique.
Update #2 - My friend Wes finally called me. He got home to Phoenix safely and had a long chat with his girlfriend. She was not seeing anyone else. Things are so much more complicated than that. Turns out she is having his kid. She's due the end of April. He seemed happy about it, but he's a hard guy to read sometimes. He and I had had a conversation recently about this very thing. He told me that he wants kids but not right now. He travels a lot and is gone for months at a time. This will mean a major change for him. I hope everything works out for them. Still, I know he'll be a great dad and he'll do everything for this kid. He and Claire (his girlfriend) have not decided if they are going to get married yet, but they have decided that if the baby is a boy they are going to name him Colin. I think that's great. Colin would be very pleased and would have been a fabulous uncle.
This needs to be a good week. I feel like I've been on a fucking roller coaster lately. My past has been haunting me and my future is shrouded in darkness. I need someone to polish my crystal ball or re-shuffle my tarot cards or something. Maybe I just need to get laid. I don't know anymore...
"How exactly had things turned out so? This woman whose eyes she used was the last woman the child she had been would have expected to become." -- Stephen King - "Wizard and Glass"
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